Binky Fairy

We tried a few months ago to get Jace to give up his binky. I never wanted my 2 year old to have a binky. I never even wanted my one year old to have one. But life happens and we just never got around to taking it away from him. When we first tried to take the binky away, Jace was a mess. He cried for hours at night and screamed "binky!!! mommy, binky!!!" It was hard on all of us. He threw outrageous fits all day long and the only way to calm him down was to put him in a cold shower which I hated doing but it was the absolute only thing to snap him outta the uncontrollable cycle he was in. Yesterday we decided to send his binkies to the "binky fairy". Jace was really excited about tying his binkies to a balloon and letting them float up in the sky. Too bad we never got the chance! Jace managed to lose both binkies we had. So no binky fairy but Jace also didn't get any new binkies to replace his old ones. Nap time is hard for Jace without a binky but it can only get better from here! Bed time on the other hand wasn't so bad last night. He cried for a little bit and then fell asleep. Jace did wake up an hour after going to bed and sat on the couch with us for only 5 minutes before returning to bed and going to sleep for the night. We finally got rid of the binky! I could not be more proud of my little man!

Smile Through the Storm

I have to admit, I was SUPER excited to move to Texas last summer. It was supposed to be a new start for me, for my kids, for my marriage. Everything was going to be great, I just knew it. The 5 day drive from Washington to Dallas was the best. Jace did perfect minus getting super car sick the first day or so. I got to see family that I haven't seen in a long time. My nausea from being in my first trimester/second trimester was subsiding. Bryce didn't move with us right away. Things weren't the best in our relationship but we had been in a much worse situation and gotten through. The plan was for me and Jace to move with my parents so that we could settle while Bryce worked out and got into the military. One month after I got to Texas, Bryce moved down as well. We both left his family, our friends, a place where all our memories were. Washington was were we met, where we went to school together, where we had Jace, where we got married. Washington is our home and we left it behind to have a better life in Texas. Bryce was supposed to leave the beginning of December for boot camp with the USMC. Tessa was due the first of the year. Texas was supposed to make things better. Now, don't get me wrong Texas does bring me close to my parents and my sister. I was able to be there for my sister when she had my nephew. But I didn't sign up to be alone here. I have my husband, my parents, my sister, and my brother-in-law but that's it. I feel so alone here. The people I was close to from back home no longer speak to me even when I try to initiate the conversation. Now, I'm sure those reading this are like "Boohoo. Poor Emily. All alone in a new place." I knew it would be hard at first to be here but I didn't think it'd take such a toll on me. I see no point in trying to make new friends here when I'll be moving soon with no future plans of moving back here. I guess what I'm getting at is I wish things were easier and I wish I didn't feel so lonely when I have the most important people around me. I wish things were different and I wish time would fast forward a little bit so we could move on with our lives. Maybe someday my wishes will come true. Until then, I'll smile through this storm because I know once it subsides I'll have an even brighter time!