Rock and Worship Roadshow

Last night we had the amazing opportunity to go to the Rock and Worship Roadshow for the second year in a row. Last year I was just starting to figure out what I wanted out of my life. Bryce and I were just dating. We had really started going to church together on a weekly basis. I thought that I was ready to commit my life to following Christ. Since last year I have grown up. I thought I had put all my past mistakes behind me and moved forward. The past month I have been troubled by my past. I've felt guilty for what I put my parents and family through my freshman year. I've felt ashamed of being a teen mom. I've felt anger about my childhood. It has held me down from moving forward in my life. At the concert Bart Millard, lead singer of MercyMe, preached about the very thing I've been thinking/feeling. He proclaimed that we are not our sins. Christ did not die on that cross for nothing. He died for our sins. He died for my sins. Yes we sin but God still loves us no matter what. We cannot forget that he has unconditional love for each and everyone of us. Bart talked about how even if his child made horrible choices and was sentenced to jail, he would still love him. For some reason that hit me hard. Even though I have my "daddy issues" and I became a mom wayy too young, God loves me still. God thinks I am worth his time and effort. If he didn't think I was worth it he wouldn't have given me a healthy, smart little boy. He wouldn't have given me a great husband and a job to help pay for our needs. God wouldn't have given me the opportunity or the strength to go to Medical Assisting school. I am worth being loved. I am worthy enough to have good brought into my life no matter how much I've screwed up and hurt those around me. I feel as if I can finally forgive myself completely.

Last night was the first time I heard of Luminate. Oh man did they win me over! They were so much fun on stage and their song Heal this Home (see above video) really spoke to me. "But God restores and opens doors to the love, to the life they’re looking for Sometimes you gotta let go That’s when love can grow So let the tears fall down Oh, in your weakness God is strong He’s been there all along and He’s holding you right now" That one phrase brought tears to my eyes and I will never forget the feeling of hope and love it gave me. 

Me and two of their members! =)

To show my love and appreciation for the band, I bought one of their shirts and got it signed

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